Omg! I just received a piece of shocking news. My students, siblings' mother passed away!?! Wtf. They are only what? Pri1 and pri3? This is hell man!! How are they gonna survive? Im sure their mum wouldnt bear to let em go. So young, cant even take care of themselves! Zzz its so heartaching jus thinking of that! I hope they are able to cope..will be donating some cash to them as well. Funeral is dam exp nowadays too. Sigh :(

I got 2anyone album frm chingul. Super nice! I really love 'go away' the tune is stuck in my head and their MVS were terrific! Omfg! The multiple diff scenes, the diff COOL OUTFITS!! Those korean style JACKETS! They are all awesome! And go away has a storyline too. CL SURE CAN ACT. I feel like slapping that guy! SM is really taking good care of her. Alot of attention huh! LOLS! But yeah she looks real pretty with shades :D
kiss is also not bad! i love the tune too. addictive i shall say, haha

Anyway was preparing to shut down my desktop yest when i spotted a new seller main page on tao bao! Omfg. The clothes damm cheap and looks really nice! Kor style! And the connection at that time abit sot. So ended up browsing thru only. Gonna look and do a detail search when i get home! Excited! Think this is the only thing am looking forward to tdy. LOLS.

Hmm so far so good with sp... Now am more worried for my RIM payment. Some lame people suddenly says wanna add 4mil payment for RIM. By this month. Thats so sick. And the stack is very thick. Like i say, i felt cheated. -.- so much to do. Dont even know if my efforts will get recog... Okay. I'll listen to rui unni. Im a good girl. Will absorb and digest her words! She really wrote me, eh... Typed me an essay! (i forgot if i mentioned it. If i did, pls bear with me.) cos i think its real cool. I really like those words and i saved them in my desktop. I'll read them when the feelings are back. Therefore, currently, i feel okay. Ganbatte shimasu!! Will do my best to defeat those sickening tasks! I'll show you my powers. Roar!

Did i mention? By right the 500deposit was supposed to split between shiro and i. But tide turned. His sis gets money from him. Zzz so its like he cant save AGAIN. And worse still. Dono if he can feed himself. So i suggested me forking out 500bucks. And the rest will be paid by him in the future. Is that right? No idea. It is really depressing looking at my account balance right now. Mayb i shdnt go for korea pop night. Cos suju's sale of tickets is coming soon... I overspent. And taking away the amount i fork out for package and the ticket, im still short, by quite alot. Wtf. Even with the upcoming pay. It cant really save me. Mayb. I'll have nothing to spend after deducting all my monthly expenses. This is such a fucked up life. How much longer do i have to continue this kind of life. Do i live to save and trim? To study? To live by rules? Of cos i dint want that. I want to live my life to the fullest. And it is dam impossible in sg. All i see is same buildings same route same scenery. Thou i dont mind certain people in my life to stay as it is. Seriously how long more do i have to continue this kinda life?
Okay. There still happy things in my life. Small things that makes me happy. Such as painting my nails, getting special coloured lenses. Watching a good film. Getting to know jaejoong and other idols. Listening to good songs.(this applies to korean songs). Looking at pretty clouds in the sky. Gloomy skies are my fave. I always snap pics of columbus clouds and gloomy skies. I hav a collection of them. If only i could snap the red sky at night! They are so beautiful! The stars too! However we can only view thru our naked eyes. Theres no way to capture the red sky. Cos there's actually no colour. Red is a default colour. D:
And then there are good food such as kangkong, sambal stingray. And the great nature veg- CHILLI! Wahaha reminds me of my heechul. He wore chilli costume in the superjuniorshow3 back in korea! Suits him so... He's as hot as chilli? Nope! It is his temper! LOLS!

Jus got off frm class! The tutor is like bullet train! Its like he's catching a flight tonight -.- and let us off 30mins earlier! Something's weird huh! Anyway im happy at work today cos my ex- vendor actually gave me mooncakes! I did tell him mok is now handling his payment, but still he says he wanna give them to me. >///< he says he hav not spoken to mok yet. LOLS! He's so nice! My fave vendor! Cos he always giv stuffs! Such as mooncakes and bahgua for new year. Hoho! So sad that im letting him go TwT HAHA. And charles vendor super generous. Gave like 6boxes of mooncakes! :) so each of us took a box... I couldnt bring em home today cos i got class. My mum sure happy. She did ask me if im getting as much mooncakes as last year. It is so hard to ans! I think most prolly panda unni dont have vendors as generous. So i kept quiet. I dint even tell her that i changed portfolio. Lol. Is there a need?

Buahaha. Okay today is sat. So funny. Esther laughed at my expression! Have i not shown her? I thought i make that expression frequently. HAHA. She laughed till peng and say it looks cute o.o lol yes today and tmr, there's cosplay event at scape! Today am meeting shar, we're goin to explore chinatown! Haha very hot and sunny. I booked gary to go that haruhouse event tmr... :) then mika told me abt this seiransai event at jap sch tmr. Its the event we oways sees in drama and anime, organised by schools! So cool! :) then i dono which to attend. But mika might be going to seiransai?

Hoho it is monday. Sat and sunday was cool enough. That china town trip, couldnt really find the so called ' fashion street' leh. But found lotsa delicious looking pastries xD HAHA. I did found a pants thats suitable for afa. But it is 29bucks loh. Faints! T.T I need to look ard more to find my afa outfit. Haa. And sunday was the best! Gary and i really went SEIRANSAI! So god damm cool! It is exactly like in the dramas or mangas! Each class a diff store. Haunted house, maze, matsuri, movies, uniform try ons! Tea ceremony. Omg all so nice! BUT GUESS WHAT? Just lining up for the maze was enough. Took ard 45mins. Its really interesting! They did everything themselves! The commitment as a class. Think i can never experience such fun :( anyway got to pick a charm think its a love charm. And i got this :"GOOD LUCK CHARM. It is a good chance to confess to your love one and you will get accepted." so i was wondering. Confess to? MUST BE JAEJOONG THEN!! Woahaha! :X anyway gary got misfortune charm! Lmao! Not a smooth one for him i guess haa! Then after the maze, i wanna get to the tea ceremony! But closed. Then we tried the ninja and the dark room, BUT THEY SAY ITS TOO PACKED AND DONT ALLOW US TO QUEUE T.T some closed. ARGH! Its cool enough to be there. So am okay. Next year, i'll surely reach early! Will get shiro to apply leave. Hoho! Oh yeah the most impt part is mika :) i couldnt recognise her w/o the wig. -.- really sry abt it. I recognised her top! LOLS! But gary recognised her right away! O.o power! Too bad dint getto take pic with her.. She was busy with her frds as well =3= abit wasted. Hmm was pissed or rather disturbed by one scene, when her guy frd went to hold her face o.o shocking. Anyhow one. Like eat her toufu like that! Gary knows im not happy abt it. Haa. A little too obvious? :X

Did alot of mistakes for sp *coughs. Very funny mistakes. And the lousy system made me work extra. No document num uploaded. And when i re-upload, everything seems fine! Weird. Anyway im NOT DONE WITH MY GIRO. So there's no need to mention my cheque. LOL *=* and cos am meeting hyung for kbox today i cant ot. I think am late for the session already.. Just now i forgot to release my TTS! And i shut down my com. Lucky mok havent off. So i use his com to release them. Gonna be real busy next few days. Confirm plus chop. and i called panda unni like 3times today to clarify the steps and to clear my doubts. Oops. I feel real bad, occupying her time, pestering and disturbing her. :( anyway she's so nice! Offered to help us buy KOI! Hee. I bet she will think of me when she drinks koi xD and shannen sis helped to bring it up. Thanks sis :D and was having debate today with rui unni. Cos we're ordering pizza tmr. Im the one ordering cos rui unni says so o.o whats the special occasion? Panda unni is coming to lunch with us! Glee! Rui unni scared i order to much o.o and kept trying to press down my orders. But we got 2guys with us..so its like diff case... Luckily we came to a conclusion in the end. Otherwise we'll debate till tmr. Haha! So tmr will be my hajimete time ordering. :X hwaiting!

Its sat nao. Dint getto update yest cos i forgot to bring my mobile out. Like again?! Haha. Anyway the pizza looks real small. And am very happy that panda unni is back to hav lunch wit us :) but of cos somethings happened. And i dont like it. Not only me, if it is applied to yourselves, you guys wld hate that feeling too. Cant help it. I wasnt told nor updated on anything. And at least shar did try and says that she'll tell me. BUT WAS STOPPED BY ALL 3OF THEM. i was like wtf. Forget it then. Then the following day. I got things cleared up. Got the whole picture, shocking. Very. So whats the reason of not telling? Dont know. Dont wish to talk abt this already. This always, never fails to happen when people comes too close.

Anyway thurs night, i went to send my wifey, angel off to Finland! Luckily shiro was free. Before, he said he will be busy on that day. So yeah we met up at tanah merah. And he wasnt using his brain. Got up on the opposite side of the platform! = =

We went popeye's and got ourselves stuffed. Super full. Hardly can stand straight o.o went watsons to get some stuffs then off to T2 angel told me she's checking in her lugg... So early zzz. Managed to take pic wit her before she went into the queue. It wasnt a long queue. There wasnt even a queue. But she's stuck there for like... More than 30mins? Wth is the airport staff doing? I tried my best to entertain shiro. Chat. Play. Take pics. Jokes. Then suddenly he realised he waited too long. Zzz. It was 930then. And i still got work the following day! So both of us went off first. And i did sms my wifey abt it. Apologies for leaving so early!

Oh yar i went kbox with hyung on tues too. Korean songs werent as much as the new kbox rooms but at least there were dbsk's :) everytime i sees jaejoong on the screen, for bolero, i feel like touching his face. :X lols!
Hmm what else happened? Jacky did call me that night asking if im goin to meet them up. QUESTION MARK? Since when there's a meet up? Totally wasnt informed. I told him i wasnt aware of the meet up. So i decided not to go. That si jacky still dare to act blur with me. He says really? Are you serious? Zzz. Goin to pick on him on 23rd, dont care! He told me his frds dint get the korea night tickets! Lol! But he's still coming with me.. O.o okay anyway, yong helped boon put in good words. She said boon is the one who mass smsed everyone and he sent to my old number. = O = so lame can! Well i decided to believe since i heard it frm yong instead of others. Hoho.

Am so irritated right nao!
Sunday buses is that fking little? The intervals is like more than 30mins? 22went off before i cld reach the bustop. And NO BUS TO TAMP CAME AFT THAT. So wtf! So pissed that i decided to transfer bus since 8came. But SAME, NONE BUS CAME. Stupid. And you know what? In the end i took the next 22. Isnt this ridiculous?!? Waste my time, stuck there under this effing hot weather for 30mins. Pissed. anyway am suspecting that the so called 'toothache' is the catalyst. It is not pain, but my gums are sort of tighted up. And it is disturbing! Am aware that my backtooth is growing. All 4 i think. But only my right side is causing the irritation. Shd go denise's dental clinic soon. Sigh. Ok wth. I just saw 21zoomed pass our very slow 22. Can i kill someone? Argh.

Oh and myyuki is heading to genting and afew of her frds today! Not sure what time thou. But really hope she can enjoy herself instead of coldwar wit ed. Shd continue the coldwar aft they are back! Haa. Too bad i cant tag along! Cos it is closing leh. Dam sian.
oh yar she sent me JYJ new album =D" The..."
hmm all slow songs? i really missed jaejoong's voice, when i heard his singing, its like im revived once again...
a diff feeling settled in me. hahah

alright resident evil4 is NICE!!! realised i have a fetish for guns, boots, bombs, helicopters. super action packed = super nice HOHOHO. sorta regretted not watching 3D. cos sharon says that it is super nice, as in the effects, the damn huge monster with axe appeared jus infront of their eyes. *sulks
hehe then i went Best and spent 119bucks = n = this is unavoidable as sooner or later i wld hav to spend that money. luckily i hav my sis to share the cost with. so its abt 60bucks. DX went sasa and couldnt find the eyeliner chingul was trying on that time ( back in bugis) i needa ask her again tmr. hopes she rmbs (90%impossible thou lol)
and so shiro and i strolled home. mum is cookin dinner tonight. every sunday is a FEAST, and u shd knw y. cos it is my didi's book in day. :3
he's asleep nao. in the living room on the new sofa ( which i dint even get the chance to sleep on. it is kinda like a foldable thingy) well knw y he is this tired? its not bcos of work but GAMES n____n and thus slept at 5AM. goodjob huh.

cant wait for tmr. im going for a haircut for my fringe, and mayb abit of layering? i'll consider that. cos i cant seem to style my hair, too long already. the weight will jus pull the messi-ness down =(

omg i found so many goodcosplay photos. kinda shocked.
hahaha. shall i open a photoalbum in fb for my cosplay collections? glee.

okay i have LOTSA PAST POSTS, all stored in my HP.
LOLS! enjoy READDIINNNGG huh. it is really looonngg!!!! aint kidding! combi of many dayss. like i said, when i have time e.g. travelling to class or back home, i'll type em in my mobile. wahhaa


First of all. I wanna wish my yuki happy bday! :) wanna go shopping with her but there's money constrains :x

TODAY's POST:

OMG? like WTH?
shiro was in the police car with his partner and a DAMN CAR CLASHED into his car!!!
FROM THE SIDE and was crashed into the passenger seat.
shiro knocked his head and the partner sort of sprained his waist.
he said he had the after effects after hrs, he felt pain in his head and feel like vomitting.
so their boss then send them both to hospital.
the doc says what he had was some aftereffects which was minor and common- caused by the knock so he gave shiro painkillers.
if he finished his painkillers and still feel pain, then he needed to head back for X-ray. zzz.
WTF CAN? SG CAR DARE TO BANG POLICE CAR? F OFF.
and it is all the sg car's fault. they sure goin to pay compensation, sue/fine? i hope so!!!
WAH KAO. all my prayers every morning like abit not stable huh?
please let him be safe.. please?

Was out with shiro yest... Was his pay day and he owed me 80bucks worth of presents :x he passed me cash! Haa dam funny eh. I spent only 40bucks. The rest i try to save huh... Cos i will soon hav a hole in my pocket! Actually wanted to see if there's any nice shows in theatres, but was caught by some photoshot agency. Very close to sharon's package. Photoshoot in TAIWAN! Thou my ultimate aim is JAPAN! >~< but they told me there is sakura im taiwan as well plus they'll provide my kimono. And i can choose the hairdo that i want. So exciting! So gonna send vivi's kimono pics to them! Wahaha! The girl talking us into this is quite kind. She offered us a package. for casual shot, she offer us price for only one pax she did say that its student price cos we're both really young.. Dono how true too.. And then she says cos we're tgt for 7years, she thinks we'll get married say 3years down the road. So she added in jus in case we decided to get wedding shot instead. 5wedding gown and 2tux. And shiro's colleague had went for the wedding shot, it costs 2k plus. So ours is considered cheap... Hope so? And by right, we need to pay half the amount, but she knows tat we're broke, so we paid only 500bucks. Haha! Well it is very exciting. I am already decided on my kimono style. GYARU STYLE COMFIRM!!! Keke. Think thats the only thing i look forward to? Anyway. We need 2.5days to prepare, discuss and of cos for our photoshoots. And the rest of the trip would be free and easy! Woohoo :) nice yeah? Thinking of it. I wanna conquer the ferrieswheel there. Esp the hello kitty one! And i wanna fang tian deng at night! Hoho and i wanna go on guess show. XD and last but not least shopping. Hoho. Oh yar the girl super funny. She want me to stay as i am right now. Means i have to maintain my weight and also my hair length. And she reco me to leave my fringe longer -.- hmm the fringe part i dont think so? Cos the kimono style is straight bangs lor. Argh. Haha! Oh and she giving us free wall hanging portrait. Thankyou card. Sisters card. :D wah this photoshoot thing remind me of the cosplay photoshoot i wanna have. I still think that shiro suits kazama dam much. Esp their eyes! Means i have to cos chizuru?! She's so plain and boring leh. Roar. So maybe we could do rasetsu one :x and i went online to search for kazama's clothing. It will cost ard 90bucks. And chizuru's cheaper. Cos simpler. And i did research okay! Saved tonnes of kazuma's pics and also both him and chizuru's. Also some cosplay pics. Hoho. I really hope i can cos at least once in my life lor. No matter how old am i. Then i can get gary to be my photogr. XD

Know what? Liting is in the same class as me! For financial reporting. She flunged HRM. Must be tough man. I heard it frm sheena too... So currently she's taking 5subjs! So crazy man! Goodluck to her. :X she is still as blur as last time! Very cute! Always speaks what comes to mind then regret a sec later. Haha!


MON will be the day we order the tickets online. i need to buy 8tickets. OMFG.
all lives are with me. life or dead? to get or sold out? SIGH.

PAST POSTS:

Quarrelled with shiro yest. Supposed to go swimmin last evening but it rained. So i suggestted for him to head over to payalebar as there's a real huge pasar malam. But he says that he's tired and paya lebar is too FAR! He should get a gf who lives in woodlands man! To let him learn the true meaning of FAR! Dammit. Of cos i stay quiet. Off day dont meet gf, it is your loss! Angry. So i did not pick up any of his calls. There's only 2calls 1sms. I went home directly. Then around 8plus he called my mobile. I ignored it. Then he called my hse phone. My mum picked up. I told her to tell shiro that im not home. But she refused! And ignore my request! -.- so i went to the phone and tell him im not home. Hahaha! Then it is like he call to nag. To complain that am not considerate enough, too self centered too selfish. And same old lines. That i changed. I dint change at all loh. I was bad right from the start its just an illusion or his own perception that im good. LOLS! Then he said ' then i got cheated already. D= i dint know you are bad right frm the start' woahaha! This is damm funny. anyway i told him one thing. I said ' this is me, accept it or leave it ' buahaha im so smart. This shut him up. Cos he knows that he'll accept. There's no way to not accept me. Keke. But its the truth what. This is me. XD

Chingul and rui unni goin to learn korean language at cc! Saturday lessons and they are goin yishun's D: damm sad! I wanna learn with them! But i dont have the 'saturday time' to go and the location too far. Grrr. Anyway i have plans to take up japanese and korean. I will take jap first. Still my top priority despite the recent (v long) kpop craze. Haha. Cos japanese is something that i fell in love with since young. And the love for japan is still strong. :) whats more. If i master jap, jaejoong will understand me! We cant really communicate now cos he knows nuts abt english. T.T i confirmed this when i was watching JYJ DVD (JAEJOONG VERSION ONLY) and he was trying to get near this huge horse called rocky. Cos he's in canada, an outskirt, whitehorse. Ang mos only speaks in eng! He called jae to 'watch' as he was goin to feed rocky. But jae totally dont understand and kept touching rocky till that ang mo nudged him :( :( haha i totally love that 30mins of my life just watching jaejoong! Him feeling cold playing in the snow -30degrees. Him riding a dog sleigh in the snow. Him amazed at the size of rocky. Him who gets close to animals so easily. Him sliding on the frozen lake. Him drilling a hole in the lake and attempt to fish. Him laughing when his fishing line froze due to the cold. Him using skii sledge, walking in the snow. Him falling and laughing non stop. Him making sandwiches in the middle of the night. Him standing by the stove! Him shopping, commenting on how unhealthy the food are in the supermart. Him playing piano. Him composing a song so easily. Him who loves to sing with his heart and soul. Him whose voice is like an angel. Him jumping around bcos of the cold. Him who loves dogs. Him with a laughter that sounds like a melody. Totally love him. He suits to be with winter. I guess he knew it too. They are perfect match. Thats why he chose whitehorse. Hee. And he can play piano really well. Can sing and compose a song just by playing and humming. Total shock!

Do you have any idea what happened to shiro? We were supposed to meet up for movie last fri. And i received his sms thurs night saying he cant meet cos he had night shift on fri. Cos he's currently under deployment at geylang npc (dam near my sh green!) till 26th WITHOUT ANY OFF DAYS. Once again i cursed npc. Zzz. So i told him to get 3rd sept to some sort like to make me happy. Then he replied he's unable to cos they are giving him off frm 27 till 30. (tts his own assumptions that they will not approve his leave.) seriously eff him luh. Zzz. So that day is no biggie for him? Then fine. 3rd sept is also my chingul's bday! I'll enjoy myself with her. Instead of seeing his dam face. Oh anyway since shiro cant acc me on fri. Its also my pay day. I wanted to go bugis. Then panda unni and i were chatting abt our SUPER PATHETIC INCREMENT. (shall talk abt that later). And they were like salt. Yes as tiny, as fine, as microscopic as salt. Haha! And we continued till we joke that we need to throw/scatter that pinch of salt away. So we came up with shopping after work! Yay! And seriously, 4of us went bugis after wrk. W/o rui unni cos she's on half day. =3=

But super fun! I bought a pair of shoes and 3pieces of clothing :) everyone bought their stuffs! Glee! Think panda unni and i spent the most. Hoho. Scattered our pinch of salt. :X ok back to the increment part. Got it this month and it sucks. I remembered my mum laughing at my papa for having 40bucks increment. And at that time i was feeling sorry for my papa. Cos his increment is seriously laughable. And right now... I CAN JOLLY WELL LAUGH AT MYSELF! LMAO. It is this bad. I dont even dare to tell my mum abt it. Its not worth mentioning. -.-

Just hadda photoshot with gary. Hmm shdnt hav wore skirt. :( initially i planned to wear shorts. But after he sent me the costume he like.. I changed to skirt. Hadda hard time choosing what to wear too! God! Went vivo and sentosa. I went chaoda. So freakin hot! Curses! Then i realised my expressions not good sia. Need to practice diff facial expressions. LOL! Dono hows the outcome thou. Haha. So tiring! Oh btw, shiro called in da morning. And told me he's off today. Hello? You told me you have no off till 26th remember? So i aint my fault that i cant meet you. I'l make sure you regret not meetin me on tues! Argh.

Started watching code geass yest! No idea why i started watching. It was on my 'towatch' list all the while... It sure is nice! Thou the main lead- lelouch is a little too skinny. The storyline is thrilling! And unexpected stuffs will jus keep poppin out. Im really sad that he brainwashed shirley. I think he likes her too! But she underwent too much pain after she found out the truth abt zero... Yeah so painful that she wanted to die with lelouch. And lelouch, couldnt bear to see her suffer so much, and erased her memories. All related to him! Wth! She totally forgot him! Lelouch is really adorable when he smiles! But he's always serious and stress :(

Im watching season 2now. Wth lor. The britannian emperor also has geass. Zzz. But shirley is back to square one. When she was innocent, and loves lelouch. :) and i hate kallen!


What am i doing recently?
- missions missions and more missions!
- had quite a hard time with panda unni's scrapbook! Its like late nights cos of it. Time limit thus hav to rush! And gotta keep using my brains for creativity. >~<
- watching CODE GEASS! Its damm nice! Abit like gundam but very diff storyline. It all revolves ard 1guy. He's smart, brave and fragile. Lol... And has very sad storyline. People close to him dying. All cos of his geass. Shirley! So wanted them to be together! But in the end that damm fake bro, rolo killed her! And rolo died too. Sacrificed for lelouch!!
- classes. Whats new man.

Panda unni left starhub yest... I dint feel it till the end of the day when i open her present. Touched. Super! Of cos she wrote abt jaejoong. Haha! And im junior JJW :) see? Panda unni... Right to her last breathe she still trying to talk sense into me.
Trying to get me to change for the better , be softer and not so hard. Glee. Exactly what i wrote for her in the book! I knw she's been trying to hlp all these while. Really big thanks unni! Miss you! Its ok. Can see you on friday. :) its our toufu's bday! :D my beloved chingul. Glee! Goin k! Kpop here we come! XD

Anyway the oct kpop concert.. Price of tickets out. Seriously i think they are earning like mad. Cheapest 118. To hell! This makes my chingul reconsidering. Shits. But jacky wanna go! And he is amazingly into snsd and willing to fork out such amt jus to see them! Nice huh! Lols! And myyuki too! She's super into hongki! I reserved the seat beside me for her. Glee! So mayb jacky has to sit away frm me... Pretty sad huh. Haha. Shall try to solve the purchasing of tickets first! Its on mon zzz. The seating floor plan is out! Haha.

This is another day. The sale of tic on mon is fake. Cos sat was damm chaotic therefore they postponed the date. No idea when but confirm not mon or tues. Dont tell me its on sat. My most busy day! Argh. Anyway i continue to go on leave cos shiro wants me to acc him. If not i surely go back wrk to giv sharon surprise! I run my paycycle, and she wouldnt hav time to key more. Hoho! Evil smile. :X haa. Then yest, shiro and i celeb our belated 7th anni. Hoho. Went eat movies and took neoprint! Keke. Dam fun. Just that the printouts too small :( very sad. Think i chose the wrong layout! Curses! I wanna take again! Dont care xD