past posts:
Cant believe that someone out there shared the same feelings and thoughts with me. Im super glad and i felt much better letting those stuffs off my chest esp to someone who can totally understand it. And of cos not taking the other party's side. XD see? This means am not alone! But kinda pissed cos there's yet another victim like me. And that chat refreshed those buried memories and those sickening scenes. Feel kind of worn out after i alight frm train. And images, conversations kept popping up in my mind. There's no way to stop it. I smsed shiro abt this with lotsa vulgarities in it *cough. He dint reply. Think he hate that subject as much as i do. So i shall do away with it. To eliminate the other party out of my life. This is going to be a very long,and time consuming process. It might even cause pain... May be giving up some stuffs to achieve this goal.

Anyway i've started my training. Okay i can disclose some of the info now.. Im changing portfolio.. And im under training from panda unni :) :) huge vendor which needs alot of time and preparation before uploading into the system. Still learning. Haha. Panda unni's mood is real good these few days. Happy :D i hope she stays this way so i wont feel scared. Opps.

And yay. 2more days to national day! FIREWORKS! And my SPICY NUGGETS! Haahaha! Looking forward. Lets hope shiro wont get deployed on that day! (this will be a worry for all future festive seasons. *frowns)

Anyway one of my wigs arrived! Omg. Its like i think i shd buy brown or black instead. Treat it as my own hair. Haha. Inexperience putting it on. I need practice! T.T

Didi is coming home tmr :) botak! Cant wait to see! My mum sure cooking up a spread! welcome him back. Hoho. Wonder what she's cooking. Glee. I got some questions for him too :x cos i downloaded jaejoong's DVD video in JYJ concert album. But am unable to watch them! Lols. And i haven d/l msn and skype YET >~< I promised mika that i'll d/l skype. Haa.

Damn there's some change of plans! My mum says my didi will reach home late and he's heading out with his buddies for supper. Sian. So she's cooking on NATIONAL DAY. The wrong thing is: SHE WANT US TO BE HOME FOR DINNER! Means am stuck at home? Cant catch a movie, cant shop before i catch the fireworks. Super lame! Her request is ridiculous leh. Who will stay home have dinner on such occasion? Faints. If i dine at home, i'll head out after tat just to go marina for fireworks? Thats so lame!! I dont know what to do! O TO KE?!?? Sigh all bcos of my didi luh. Booking in mon night. So shit. Zzz.

Lets change to some happier topics :) was online yest. Tried to look at taobao web. And access to some pretty cheap and nice clothings. And did some research to do away the middleman (bloggers) and i want to go directly to the agents for help. They will be charging 10% fee. Better than blogs i guess? Will be trying after im rich enough. Coming 20th most prob? Glee. Anyway if it is succeed, i'll proceed with my wigs and even some lolita dresses. Hoho!

Just met up with angel and sihui yest! It was fun! We went cityhall, to winter clothing shops (for angel's trip to Finland. ) had alot of fun there! Just found out that wintertime sells LEATHER GLOVES! Wth! Shd just buy frm there when i went korea. -.- it cost from 23to39. So cheap! Damm! Then we spotted beanies! Gosh, the beanies are so nice! I totally fell in love with the white one! I can imagine myself in it when i make my way back to korea or even japan. Wahaha! Bet im getting it real soon. Even sihui says it is nice. Glee. Hmm i planned to purchase any trench coat that has nice design and reasonable price if i see them online. Cos i will go back to korea im sure. Or else it will be to japan to watch jaejoong. Wahaha.

Okay back to topic, we went to watch SALT after that. I really like it! For your info, im an ACTION-PACKED LOVING PERSON. As long as there's fighting scenes or high technology graphics i'll feel very contented. Whats more, angelina jolie's double eye lids killed me there. Her eyes looks perfect! Hahas. Then sihui gotta head back home. Just right, jacky called me when am in theatre. They were at raffles city! So close to each other :) :) so i went to meet my poly buddies after i split with my 2gfs . :D HEHE.

So long! Really miss them lots! Jacky, nigel, ahboon, yong. Tim. Glee. Yeah and then boon says that his friend asks him ' why is your friend this way?' he was referring to my dp. Gothic style. Its my life. I mean im quite pissed with his frd. Thou i dont know who is he. he aint my friend. Why shd he care? And he dont understand a thing. Dont like or feel weird then dont see. Click the cross at top right hand corner. It is that simple. Or i'd recommend you to go view some other ' normal' chiobus in fb. Even better right?

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I hate to say this cos I promised that I will respect whatever decisions that he make.
That I will support him throughout his career path.
But right now, I really hate police job. The morning and night shifts, the call-backs, the don’t know what is letting staff off “ON TIME”.
They are rubbing against my patience.
Yeah of cos the stories are nice but it still sucks.

Uncertainties. Not even knowing if we are meeting OR NOT.
It is like I cant meet him on EVERY OFF DAYS that he have, CAUSE I have got classes!
My classes are real random and most of the time, his off days just wont match well with my free time.
Yeah it sucks.
Sometimes my mind went wild and was thinking it will be so much better if he is in workforce.
Like u can meet up whenever that u want, after office hours.
(anyway, he should be still in NS anyway, serving police force. So there’s no diff)

This is my rant for today. Bear with me huh. It is like a very tsunami-like emotional rush. Scary.
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today:

hehe i trying out new pattern for my nails.
hmm will try to post some pics when done yea?
actually wanna get them painted yest, but myyuki suddenly suggested steamboat at Novena, so i went xD
poor jayden hit his head when they were all preparing to head out.
he hadda huge blue black on this forehead. and a red scratch accross it.
think he cried like 20mins cause of the pain =w=
poor thing. then he emo, dont wanna walk, dont wanna sit in pram.jus wan myyuki/edwin to carry. like typical kids i see outside. HAHA
both of them very funny! kept bikering and complain abt each other! in a way it is sweet! very funny and entertaining. >///<

the steamboat i wanna go is underconstruction!!
arghs. so we went another. the ingredients for teppanyaki was too little. only chicken some taiwan sausages, so limited. =~~~= shd reco them to go bugis next time hahaha.

then we chatted abt online blogshops.
her bro's gf's friend earns big bucks sia.
earning like 1000+ per month just opening 4 sprees.
the price is ranges from 20-40bucks.
i've spotted some of her stocks in bugis street too.
bugis selling at 19.90? and she selling ard 24bucks. 0.0
some nice ones are selling at 27-30 those i might consider. hahaha.
dono where she get all her stocks from. we suspect is from bangkok. cos they are not from a perticular online shop. she uses their pics for the spree.lol
too bad no korean style!

glee i shall continue my sunao ni narenkute =D
just to watch jaejoong. his laughter makes me melt :DD

O to ke?
Time just passes like that.
Its is Shiro and my 6years 11 months anniversary.
I know. WTF.
Means im left with approx 30days to prepare presents/surprise (IF ANY)
I doubt I have the time to plan all those stuffs.
Its is kinda frustrating looking at my calendar.

My timetable sucks.
I have to sacrifice most of my SATURDAYS for classes! For goodness sake!
There is so much opportunity cost, too much that im scared to list them all down and make them all stare back at me.
Im sad, and I have yet to overcome this wave of despair.
Some of the lost.
. MONEY. This is definitely the main point. NO MONEY= NO STUDIES.
You know how much I need it. I can actually earn more. But my classes are in the way. *curse.

. Kill me please. I going to miss this festival. I had never attended one before these 21years of my life!!
And I planned to go this year. And MY CLASSES are again in the way. Pls fkin get yur ass out of my way can!??!
Event: 夏祭り2010 NatsuMatsuri 2010 (falls on 21st Aug 2010)
* u couldn’t imagine how torturous and heart aching it is to see these impt events gets removed; Phhoooom, gone, just like that.
Everytime I recalled any special occasion that falls on a sat, I think I might get heart attack everytime I check my timetable. This is called HELL.

I really don’t feel like listing down the next.
I have no idea when is it held and this is the event im looking forward to FOR WHOLE OF THIS YEAR.
. AFA 2010 and EOY2010
Well they fall under the same category.
It is known that they ALWAYS FALLS ON SAT.
FML. Seriously.

I wouldn’t want to know what other IMPT occasions im going to give a miss ( for the time being)
This is too much. *bleeds

Anyway this sucky timetable drags from Aug till MAY2011.
Am I going to survive? I have to, right?




Anyway im trying to enjoy as much as I could before my class start.
I caught a MIDNIGHT INCEPTION @TM GV.
Cool enough, the show set me thinking. Thinking and decoding those scenes.
I think Leonardo’s acting skills not bad. When his wife jumped down the building, his expressions were the best. LOLS
And in his dreams, there was this eerie feel. That’s how dreams feel like isn’t it? lols
Enjoyed the movie! Just that I was quite uncomfortable in my seat close to the end.
Sunday stayed at shiro’s hse and we watched BIG FISH.
Not bad! The stories told by his father are actually TRUE. I thought they were…u know, just stories. LOLS.
The weather is WEIRD! The rain is fine but the breeze wasn’t!
It was so freaking cold and the breeze wouldn’t stop
I was having lunch, shivering =.= and it totally reminds me of KOREA.
Drizzle and breeze every night. I MISS KOREA TAT

Then I watched this Japanese movie on Sunday night.
僕の初恋をキミに捧ぐ Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu I give my First Love to you. Something like tt?
I fell for the female lead. YES FEMALE LEAD, not male lead. HOOOHO
She is the same lead from Hana Kimi, HOWEVER, she looks so much cuter and fashionable in this movie.
Her actions, dressing, hairstyle and all totally brings out the manga sch girl kinda feel. I LIKE! Lols.
Oh and I seldom see such tall guy in Japan. Rare species for the male lead. LOLS.
And it is yet another sad ending.
Japs do love sad endings huh. LOLS
Made me cried so much……..as usual
And the funny thing is, when I woke up Monday morning.
I regretted watching tt movie. I mean I did not regret watching that film AT ALL. But I shdnt do it on a Sunday night yeah?
Cos I’ve got very serious puffer fish SWOLLEN EYES
It is like im single eye lid and just went for a surgery. SWOLLEN. LOLS
Wore my contacts and with the K specs. Make sure my eyes are hidden behind the specs.
Totally remind me of the past when I only have one double eye lid. HAHAHA.
Ugly.
It took half a day for the puff to subside. Till almost 2pm.
You can imagine how much I cried. BUAHAHA =/








LOVE HER HAIR









In sch uni~ (her hair!)


in class :D


Okay here are the pics I saved yesterday.
Had quite a hard time searching. Most of the nicer ones are from china web.
Their database is much fruitful than ours. Haaaa.
Anyway I wanted to direct screenshot MAYU (the female lead)
And I managed to capture only one pathetic shot. The pic looks totally fine with her cute hair and cute face. xD

my one and only screenshot so far!


Know why?
Cause I have no idea y my mouse and keyboard lagged when I play youtube videos.
And thou I d/l the whole film and played using RP, it was the same. LAG.
So I couldn’t catch the part I wanted to SS. It always lag like 5secs? I can just watch the scene pass by.
I have an idea. To use my didi’s desktop for screenshots HEHE.
I shall do that tonight.
And also to continue my NICHKHUN -WGM. New epis. My sweetest boy. Teehehe.

OH did I mention that my didi helped me reformat my desktop upgrade to Windows 7?
Not only that, he can be the sweetest bro.
He helped me set up Flash Player and other essential progs to watch and play my games!
WAHAHHA. Nice yeah? XD


As im not really aware of it,
Lunar month is soon reaching.
T.T if no one reminds me of it, I bet I can live peacefully.
Anyways our Starhub once again organized the praying session.
And this time im joining! O HO. For last year we missed the “enrollment dates”
(Organizing committee=the aunties in SH. LOL)
It costs 12bucks and im broke.
Yeah both my unni’s bday falls in Aug.
OwO
And I still owe panda unni like approx 50bucks?
I still have to go class. SOBS. Can 12th or 20th approach right now?

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okay i think the slack life i got used to.
the very relaxed life; videos, manga, pictures, idols everyday had eaten into my brain.

i almost lose my self to SLACKNESS.
and of cos my original self wasnt like tt.
I CAN SEE. FINALLY, AFT MUCH THOUGHTS.

those slack and nua life is really hard to resist and they condemned my brain.
making me weak and afraid of CHANGE.
it is over now. im back to the active girl. i shall learn more things to keep my brain wrking, to fight those evil thoughts outta my mind.
im sorry letting shannen sis worried.
i will do my best. and absorb as much while training!