MONEY IS EVIL. VERY EVIL.
makes human greedier and greedier.
more and more selfish.
i think im good enough to wrk part time during my poly years, to earn and spend myself. it is their so called "REDUCING/HELPING THE FAMILY BURDEN" am i even causing strain on the household exps? not any allowance i can think of.

im not sure whether my anger now applies to how my family looks at me.
Or isit im angry with myself cos i dint spare enough thought of my parents financial prob?
im shocked tt even my didi did give my mum $$ when he's taking up his PTjob. so that leaves me out. very OUT.

win liao. NOW ITS YET ANOTHER OBLIGATION FOR ME. pls lo human nature is they expect more and more, so mayb they EXPECT me to increase their allowance.. i was wondering.. if i ditn wrk @ SBL as my 2nd job, i THINK I'LL JUS DIE LACK OF $$. hw isit possible to save for my schfees? and future?
i really hate people that expect things frm me. dammit.

and my mum. mayb its jus slip of the tongue. maybe she's just JOKING.
1st time i give her $, this is her reply "wah, u so niau ah? you know i nt wrking now, shd giv me more mah" very sry, once this sentence is out means i can no longer giv her the same amt. mus increase e amt liao. zzzzzzzz. mayb she jus wan me to giv her all my salary then she happy. its not like i earn afew k right! wah laoo!

shiro tried his best to make me not think abt it. he kept telling me if i think its right, jus do it. dont needa think abt wat others think of you. damn right. and he also feels e same way as me. tt im already reducing my fam burden wrking as PT during my poly yrs. THIS IS SERIOUSLY A BLINDSPOT 4 MY FAMILY. he can totally read my mind now. LOL. but his mum is much worse. xD

will revise on the amt nxt mth. this mth still abit unstable.
and this strain will always be in my head.
dont feel like talking abt it anymore.