I read till the book11- Origins of the Sweep Series already.. going to lend kaye and charmaine soon. =) I thought Hunter is diff frm other guys cos he's a sorta emotionless towards girls. But im deadly wrong. sorta disappointing! it just comes down to the theory tt guys cannot be trusted -.- not good.

yest was kbox-ing with my maple friends =) used to be quite a handful, w/o myyuki & edwin, its sorta empty. its a farewell meetup for vin... he's enlisting in july. lols. his bro came too, adrain. and a guy i had nv met before, Andy. They knew him thru cabal. =D went to hav jap set meal @ AMK then board my bus home at ard 11pm. im so tired! hardly get 5hours of sleep for consecutively 2days!

my hyung jus finished her exams. =) tts y went to dine with her on thurs night. Kevin tagged along too... he's real nice la. glad tt hyung found such gem as friend. LOL.

and i wonder why everybody kept wanting me to say goodbye to him.
i wanna ask "Why shd I?"
why should I be the one who's taking initiative
when i had already lowered my pride like hell, trying to revive our friendship
and all i got is rejection, coldness and embarrassment.
it is exactly the same as slapping my own face.
people say tt i should forgive n forget.
i will do that, i know.
i know tt if that person talks to me, I'll answer.
i'll talk, but i wont be the one to lower down my pride again.
being slapped once is enough, i wont be that stupid to humiliate myself again.
i cant do anything if the other party is not doing anything right?
it is always easier said than done.
yeah, so i got pissed off when 'someone' came along, trying to get me to say goodbye.
no way!
anyway, im alot happier now, no stress. no feelings of really out of place. no careful movements- living up to expectation of someone. no more 'cant really be myself'.
and i found out lots of truth, lots of opinions and comments that meant alot to me. finally i know, i m not the only one that feels that way. thank goodness.
im so glad tt im not alone on my tiny boat. XD


im starting wrk at Mango soon. =) just for the sales period, with my hyung =D
hope i'll get real busy soon.
My mum's naggings started already, abt not finding job, not earning money.
sick of it siol. it really makes me feel sick. i already submitted a handful of resume. i just wanna start my Mango soon so i wont be home to hear naggings and so i can eat the way i always wanted.

my mum & my sis are the same. they think i should work, work, work. and i m working!, just tt its only part-time. still they arent happy about it. they want a full-time job from me. i can imagine what will happen if i got my full time job. my sis will start to nag me to give my parents some money and then she'll want me to continue my work to hlp my family finances while i further my education. zzz. she thinks i SHD do tt so she WANTS me to do it. even told me tt with my age i shd be in the working world ady. ~.~
i can blame nothing but myself for coming into a not rich family.

hmm, my sis is in Taiwan right now, think the plane just touched down.
it will be a week trip. and she told me not to miss her snores. LOL.
im totally used to it! i can sleep realy well thru it :)