Sunday, May 22, 2005
where ish dearr??? i called him and nobodii pick up..where he go?? so earlli now...he surelli haven mit his frends de rite? somemore he alwaes wake up veri earlyy de....y todae no one at homee de??? siannn...suddenlli he don wanna pick up my call....hais...how??
i realli confused nowww....i donno wat i m doing...siann...i ytd quarrel wit piggy..then i told him tt i sundae then mit him...i dunno wat got into him...then he sae don mit liaos...sucksss...i cant rmb every detail...i wake up feelin nothing...like it was a dream....and now like still...it was a dream...hais..but where he go??
realli feelin hlpless now..i donno wat i can do...hais............................................................................
sian...now i quarrel wit him rite?? then later i goin bugis wit sis...and i m buyin his bdae presies...WAT AM I DOING??? wth...i feel like i m so useless!!! i shd jus spend all e money tt i saved so hard to buy things fer moiself..but i jus cant bring moiself to do tt....am i realli useless?? isit worth it? i gave up so mani things tt i wanna buy! jus to give him a realli nice gift and make him happi....and now...i m cursing myself! i wonder y i treat him so good wit all moii hard saved money...wat bout my bdae?? waaaa..i donno wat i m doing..ya noee all tis are crapp...i will still buy his presents todae...and now..i am feeling..?? sad? worried? WHAT?
i donno..don ask mi..jus like tt:

DOLA shiteru @ 1:33 AM
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