Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Annyeong. Here to paste the stuffs I had typed over past week.
13.08.12
Yes. I threw the letter.
Finally. It has always been caged.
of cos its joyous! I smell freedom. lotsa new exciting experiences awaits me. I can finally learn new stuffs other than AP. expose myself to more opportunities~~
and these 3years of AP is.... how shd I put it? A mistake? hav been constantly told by various agents that the amt of experience I have are nt enough to get me the jobscope tt I want, let alone a higher salary. Simply, these 3years is waste. And sort of a hindrance. know why? with this little salary, the companies will hav this false impression that im asking for an almost 1k salary jump (in addition, with this fkin little experience ) of cos they will discard my application. Dammit. and the thing is, what im actually asking is a degree salary, not a freakin jump from my pathetic current salary. kinda mad at this point. #sulk.
of cos i knw, during these 3years I have gained hands on experience on acc software. well, it seem so common that it is definitely not a plus point...
with my current situation and mood, it is really hard to convince myself that I have great 3years past experience. Otoke???!!! How do I persuade my future employers? #SlapsSelf. How tough it is right now. Ive tried getting my msg across to those left in the cage. well they can only understand when thy are undergg what im through right now. of cos it will be diff case if some co came along and offer them a position.
Maybe at the end of the day. It all comes down to..... LUCK.
shall update again. getting results on fri.
and this results thing is stressin me out big time. IF am on my own, i can handle it perfectly. BUT. this time , i have so many asking me details of my results!!!! How I wish that i can view my results as I please, and not having someone pestering, asking, nagging, showering concern over it. please leave me alone. I like to do things my way. Hate to live under expectations of others .
14.08
am recently very obsessed with No Min Woo!! not tt Shinhwa one but former The Trax member (under SM). He has rocker backgrd, can play piano/guitar/electric guitar/drums. he's currently pursuing career in acting industry! and sang several OST songs!!!!
alright main point is, he is talented + has really PERFECT LOOKS AND SEXY BODY. damn. I definitely have a thing for guys that are related to Rock. esp those that play elec guitar and drums. (this is influence frm NANA)
was whatsappin chingu last night. Finally completed Big! its kinda lame. anw both of us started on Minwoo's short drama! its called Rock Rock Rock! Featuring a famous guitarist (elec guitar) in korea. he's quite old now. Min Woo is the main lead! Acting as the guitarist in his teens~~~ and OMFG. he suits that char so well!!!!! The battle of elec guitar sets my heart racing +smiling all the way. He looks so cheeky, shuave, sexy and cool at the same time !!!!!! Ahhhhhhh! Just completed 1st epi only, can u imagine? lmao. Simply love that elec guitar battle scene. MinWoo is really talented. Makes me kinda wanna learn too!!!!!
This shall be after i settle my life changing issues first. It wld be best to hav my own hse to store those guitars . no one will nag at me. hiak.
Another caged : Mok. lols think he is the only one with similar wavelength as me.
went for interview this evening.
Did a paper on jnls on accrual and prepayment, can u imagine? lols. and the interview is really as how the lecturers always described! Strengths and weaknesses. This is the first time I had encountered such typical interview. lucky i did some homewrk. -.- anw the job sounds tough. like v tough. may need to work on weekends or even public holi. cant claim OT as and when, but only during peak period. and there may be daily task assigned. all gotta be done within the day! haha. still considering... but of cos the jobscope is what i want, more exposure and there's job rotation every year! so interesting~
16th aug
Did archiving today. worned out. and so many injuries, my nails cracked and there are scratches on my arms! Omw to swimming complex w my sis. Yes tire self out so can slim dwn. wahaha.
and yes, tmr is the day. will I be able to go to sleep tonight? There seems to be something burning at the pit of my stomach. Blowing off any min. Kowai. Le sigh. I knw i did my best. but maybe nt for ISO. cos its such a let down (my perf). ︶︿︶ cold feet.
well if i cant secure anything before flying to bkk, I will do something abt it aft im back.. so effing irritating listening to all the same rants. same comments. Might as well enjoy self to fullest first. Irtitated much.
17th Aug
HEYYYYS SUPER GOOD NEWS HERE!!!! WAHAHA.
I PASSSD MY DEGREE! BSC DEGREE IN ACCOUNTING AND FINANCE (2ND CLASS-LOWER DIVISION )
IM SOOO HAPPY.
ya knw im like super freaked out this afternoon when Jacky told me that results are out. cos i realised i cant rmb my effing candidate no. !!!! we need candidate no /SRN no/ d.o.b to view our results..
i tried ransackin the uol site, student portal, but to no avail.
was rather dampened, cos i really wanna knw my results. i have this unsettling feeling for ISO. cos i srsly wrote too little zzz. like 2.5 page per ques only.
anw i tried to push all negative feel aside and am well prepared to face the truth. however, it seems like god doesnt want me to view my results. .... until chiayen told me tt I can call RELC and they can feed me w my candidate no. lol. so i dialed immediately! and really. thy sorta expexted what im askin for and within 1min, i obtained my candidate no. it fits perfectly into my trial and error list (1of the no i have not tried) WOW . lols. well the number drove my fam in chaos. hahaha. I even wanted to head home, obtain my no. + results before headin out again to meey yeobo and Pers... well, thanks RELC for saving me! lols!
anw tried logging in again. and scrolled down, saw that all 5freakin subjs indicated "PASS" so shock, so happy, miraculously. turned and told shak tt i passed all!!! so excited. I was so scared!!!! but damn happy . finally i can let another stone off my chest. lucky all the effort, hardwork, stress that I've went thru had been paid off !!
21.08.12
It aint easy. It is tough.
There is no such thing as "easy way out."
Whether my choice is correct or wrong, depends on how you view it.
It may seem dumb to some people. therefore if im really going for it, I will make the choice right.
I opened up to so many options, hard to decide. Life is short, I feel like trying something different and further look into my interest.
23.08
Ohai. Still in search for direction. Hopefully aft tmr, I will have a better idea. am meeting bao's mgr :)))
actually, just thinking abt the limitless possibilities gives me chills filled w excitement ...
and still, am accepting interviews for accounts positions. This seem like a gd opportunity as well.. no close doors, only open doors.
anw did i mention? my sis is actually supportive of me! shock me pls! and yesterday, hadda chat w Shiro, he too is supportive of my plans. cant be happier. thou i have not set my decision, its a relieve that am nt being discriminated. cool.
truth is, i cant wait for tmr.
27.08
hey peeps.
i have made up my mind. im entering an industry which is absolute foreign to me. and it is of unlimited opportunities.
where hardwork gets recognized and will be paid off.
it sounds too gd to be true? it is true but of cos there's a price to pay. Hardwork.
I m definitely willing to workhard.
For sake of money. And of cos for parents and for love.
but as of current situation, it is kinda messed up... will need to settle it first... hope it can be solved. I can then break the news to my mum....
i must thank my sis for listening, giving me alot of advises, scoldings and encouragement. As for Shiro he's kinda down cos i will be workin closely with guys. my mgr. lol. unavoidable this kinda thing. Hope he understands and support me all the way. I knw he can do it.
There are always pros and cons to every situation. 2sides to everything, depends on how you see it. Our point of view may not be right, but it is a form of philosophy that we believe in. Believing in ourselves.
Will you still accept someone after you realised he isnt honest, lied. Without a twinge of guilt, he's able to lie right under your nose , smile, chat happily. Gives me the creeps. Because he is that good at lying, it made me believe him for a sec. So scary. I made myself promise not to get involved with him, but somehow... its complicated. Things aint that easy, the world doesn't allow me to keep my promise... hope i can find a way out around here.
28.08
Victor is so nice pls. Really honest and straight forward. It will be great to work under him. cos i knw his style.
DOLA shiteru @ 1:27 PM
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