MONEY IS EVIL. VERY EVIL.
makes human greedier and greedier.
more and more selfish.
i think im good enough to wrk part time during my poly years, to earn and spend myself. it is their so called "REDUCING/HELPING THE FAMILY BURDEN" am i even causing strain on the household exps? not any allowance i can think of.

im not sure whether my anger now applies to how my family looks at me.
Or isit im angry with myself cos i dint spare enough thought of my parents financial prob?
im shocked tt even my didi did give my mum $$ when he's taking up his PTjob. so that leaves me out. very OUT.

win liao. NOW ITS YET ANOTHER OBLIGATION FOR ME. pls lo human nature is they expect more and more, so mayb they EXPECT me to increase their allowance.. i was wondering.. if i ditn wrk @ SBL as my 2nd job, i THINK I'LL JUS DIE LACK OF $$. hw isit possible to save for my schfees? and future?
i really hate people that expect things frm me. dammit.

and my mum. mayb its jus slip of the tongue. maybe she's just JOKING.
1st time i give her $, this is her reply "wah, u so niau ah? you know i nt wrking now, shd giv me more mah" very sry, once this sentence is out means i can no longer giv her the same amt. mus increase e amt liao. zzzzzzzz. mayb she jus wan me to giv her all my salary then she happy. its not like i earn afew k right! wah laoo!

shiro tried his best to make me not think abt it. he kept telling me if i think its right, jus do it. dont needa think abt wat others think of you. damn right. and he also feels e same way as me. tt im already reducing my fam burden wrking as PT during my poly yrs. THIS IS SERIOUSLY A BLINDSPOT 4 MY FAMILY. he can totally read my mind now. LOL. but his mum is much worse. xD

will revise on the amt nxt mth. this mth still abit unstable.
and this strain will always be in my head.
dont feel like talking abt it anymore.

my unni shannen says she read my blog. to see if i scold her! Omg~ =.=
how isit possible right? i'll just get myself killed if i do tt. LOL

believe it or not.
I AM FIERCELY ATTRACTED TO A GIRL.
A V SEXY ONE. LOL
if i needa become Les to like her, i will become one. haaa!
she's called "GA-IN" frm BROWN EYED GIRLS.
too bad she only looks that delicious in the MV- ABRACADABRA.
the new style- hair and makeup made her look like a total diff person. hehe
hmm since sharon says she wanna cut her hair short, i strongly recommend her to watch e vid. her hairstyle DAM NICE.
cant keep myself calm. i just hav to post the pics and all on my blog. LOL~
hmm e MV is abit sick. i just like e dance. so here is the stage version. not exactly e MV.
oh btw, it is my DIDI that reco me to BEG. hehe... ga-in gices me this strong feeling that she looks like NANA. mayb its bcos of her hair n makeup. argh!







frm e MV. LOL







live and stuffs.











freaked me out today. rushed my invs like shit. and i got stuck cos i dono hw to key.
shannen unni on urgent leave today.. mayb her bad mnood frm yest make her wanna stay at home bah. lols.

hmm hyung told me 1 of her frds can make it with us to BKK. BUT!!! he's a guy!! 0.0 what can he do wit 3 girls except shop shop and SHOP?!?! it will b so boring for him!
hadda feeling we'll be heading to bali instead. i still prefer BKK. =(

glee, i d/l-ing BEG album. newest- Sound G.

look at the left division. no longer "only JaeJoong" now added in ga-in's gif. img. wahahaha!

god. i actually missed out NATIONAL DAY POST. >=<
went my uncle's hse that morning to cele MY BABY COUSIN-BRYAN'S 1ST YR OLD BDAY :D
will post e pics here when the img option is out. hahas.
he's so cute! so fair. lol. even my didi says he is totally diff frm when he last saw him. (like a mth old? LOL)
he dint wan us to carry him. so bad, so we tried to cheat him so he let us carry XD
and sadly, my didi succeed 1st!! argh!! after him i continue trying and finally he let me carry him. hehe.
he hadda choose some stuff on the parent's bed. dono he's lazy or what.. he start picking the things from the left. PEN, WALLET, STORYBK, then he changed direction and picked BISCUITS and at last.. CALCULATOR. lols.
he so funny leh, kept chionging his way to my mum =.= think bryan really like my mum's "baby-games". LOL..
ate sinfully tt day.. my mum brought over curry, my uncle ordered KFC, PIZZA, my ahma made & purchased some chinese food, and there's desert- canned fruits and BABY BRYAN'S BDAY CAKE! HAHA sooo much things =.=
was having headache.. and was waiting for myyuki's sms reply. it was almost 2pm then, so i decided to head home thru cab- with my siblings first. slept e way thru.
finally can get abit of rest at home.. and smsed with my yuki. then i head out again to meet her & baby JAYDEN @ ILUMA :D wah.. edwin saw me then throw jayden to me! my arms abit useless ah. i feel so uncomfortable carrying him, like the way i carry is wrg.. i think jayden feel worse bah. hahaha. but he juslook ard and bo chap me. LOL. dint really look at me in e eye. lols. well, he is heavy! and i jus found out frm myyuki's blog tt he is 8kg. ~.~ lols. my arms seriously ached for 2whole days! so weak xD.. dint take any pics =( nvm, on 29th then mass take pics. hehe (be ready, myyuki! hehe)
at lvl3, edwin was buying some bubbletea. then i pass jayden back to myyuki, cos i cmi ady. who knows at tis moment, sprinkle of water landed on the ground. 0.0??? i was like wats tt? o.o myyuki told me tt jayden vomited then again his face looks clean & normal! thn i saw his stomach area had this patch of water mark .__. then when we realised what isit, we both laugh like shit!!!! AHAHAHA. he urinated! and it over flowed, and squeezed its way out thru thr top of the pampers! gooodness! LMAO!
the pee did hit myyuki's leg. haiyoo. then call edwin come see lo, how his son urine!! LOls. thn e restroom still under construction so we sit at the sidewalk bench to hlp him change. hmm or rather, the daddy hlp him change. lol. so myyuki & i chatted abt the chalet & bbq food..
i think i want to hlp her deco her chalet. but haven ask yet =x mayb sat after my wrk i can hlp her deco b4 her frds arrive. or fri night? hehe... she ask me whether i staying over.. if she stay of cos i stay! LOLS.
btw, both jayden's baby wear tt day was brought by me. =D and i bought more clothing frm Fbaby. super cute de. cant wait 4 him to grow and wear. haa.

we went to find my leopard jacket but oos liao. dam saddening. dono wats wrg wit me tt day lo. 10bucks then i rejected! so dumb, so cheap of cos oos la! argh.
then edwin went to get some warm water for jayden's milk. jayden power sia. i carry him into iluma again, he fell asleep. wats more, he can drink while sleeping! =~= power! haha.

hmm myyuki aso wan watch firewrks. jus tt abit troublesome cos of jayden. hahaa. dont talk abt firewrks liao, BOTH MY HYUNG & MY SHIRO SO BAD! THEY REFUSED TO WATCH FIREWRKS WITH ME!! esp tt shiro, seriously lo, dont blame me if i go watch wit other guys. blame yurself! dammm. okay.. then we decided to head to MS.. who knows whn we reached e mrt, my sis told me tt NDP show is over liao T.T sad. lols. but still gt new year eve, lols. so i booked myyuki to go watch tgt. hehe. then we bid farewell @ raffles place... tc myyuki~ ^^


-cant wait for 29th Aug. glee-

So weird! my office blogger is ok with e img uplaoding option, then back home its still e same! many told me is bcos of TAIWAN TYPHOON. =~=

thurs entry:
(typed in office after wrkin hrs, while waiting for nelise unni)
well, im so tired today!! so lame lo, i went to the store to find e invs e auditors want for like 3 freaking times! ~.~
i went to hunt for signatures twice today =.=
And my Shannen Unni started spreading tt i can get urgent signatures easily, so call em find me if thy need urgent payment!! tt kuku. i say v loud "WO BU YAOO, MEIYOU!!" LOLS. tt baka unni!!
today she scold me cos i bought e panda post stick frm ArtBox for $3.90.. she saw it on my desk and started making a fuss!! she said yest she saw it and she was considering purchasing it 4 damn looong, cos it is exp to her, then i bought it w/o much thinking. xD haha! she actually planned to buy e same panda as me de. HAHAs.
Funny thing is she oways go for branded stuff like ard S$1k? and she's telling me tt 3.90 is expensive ~=~ dont get it luh!

haha, my laoban (boss) dam funny. was talking abt e irritating auditor and he asks which guy we were refering to. then it turns out tt it wasnt any other thy had seen before. so he gave a lame comment "7th month comming you know, u better check properly" HAHAHAA! make me laugh like shit.


saturday:
ok im tired today too!! y am i so tired >~<
i napped for awhile btw 130-2pm today @ centre, i actually fell asleep for tt 10mins or so. 0.0 abit of misunderstand today btw e teachers ahhh. angel & me were like "Act blur" all e way..alamak lo. but scare us la, tot we'll b staying back for 3 consecutive sats. LOL!! and i almost tot i hav to reach my yuki's bday chalet later in e afternoon, which seriously dampened my mood. =x well, heng la, its only today. i think i'll surely collaspe if i wrk till 330 for 3sats. lols.

shd mention this huh.. on wednesday met GARYYY to bugis. =D
ate Mac like AGAIN! lol~~ i tried the double filet. its damn good luh! but with e seaweed fries, it is goddam sinful! HAHAs. most of e time he was SMSING.. haiyooo. XD thou quite swt, but aint tt abit too much? mayb its just me. haaa anyway, his earphone spoilt, so we walked all e way to sim lim.. the place was closing when we reached.. lucky he managed to grab a pink one. hoho!! no worries liao, can listen to mp3!! lol.

hmm.. theres some stuff tt happened at my wrkplace. which consists of me luh, but not my fault at all. cos its tt someone- "L". like see me new wan bully me, call me run payment and hunt signatories for her! somemore she's here just a few days earlier than me loh! then nvm, i not sure how it goes in the msn, then the news spread... and reached my shannen unni. =.=
she dam bu shuang & FLARED when she realise 1 of e invs she's searching v badly for appeared to be in L's files =.= GG. she immediately curse vulgarities sia! LOL (btw L is on leave tt day)
so in e end, l got called into room with our boss and my unni.. dono what happened but i heard tt boss demanded L to have 100% attendance for whole of nxt mth. which is IMPOSSIBLE LA. cos she has family. see how lo. i sorta worried abt her probation. dono whether she can get thru nots =.=

then i was quite blur on friday. dammit. i for got to release my chqs and TT. then i cant find e inv my shannen unni wants. omg. luvky nelise unni helped me. ~,~ thn shannen unni msn me and she call me to bcareful, cos i wouldnt wan her to treat me like how she treat L.. sounds so scary! LOLs. so i tell her i'll b more careful de, cannot make her hate me XD
she started to say im ahlian again and she told me actually she aso ahlian =.= tts y she decided to recruit me. omg. she so funny! ok la, i find tt we're quite similar too. =x she aso brought tt up.
i like drawing, she too. learning card deco @ PS.
i like hello kitty & kiddy stuff. her table is full of hello kitty stuffs! omg.
i am teaching tuition thingy, she too. every sat! same as me. =x
i most of the time will show on my face tt i dislike a certain person. she will show it all out.
im e 2nd child, with elder sis n younger bro. SHE ALSO! OMG.

we're like sisters. just tt our taste in guys super diff. her taste special sia, dont like skinny white ones. they are my fav. Hahaha!
she will come chat with me de. which makes me happy for nothing de. lol.

anyway, i bought nelise unni a panda soft toy for her bday =D it is dam cute! i feel like owning it too. but no use leh, jus occupy space only. so i dint buy. but nelise unni diff, she love pandas. haha, immediately i want her to own tt panda. super cute. LOLs. so i gave it to her on wed morning.. i think she super happy. cos she received alot of shit.. then she see e panda she v high. even changed her msn sub nick to "Thankyou Dol dong saeng" lols! so cute~~ i did print screen, but then cant upload. hahaas.


went to get my salary frm isetan.. im happy. its sorta like extra $$ lols. then i spent away 60bucks immediately. hoho.. some office wear la. lols.

tmr gg to suntec. braun buffel, to look at shiro's anniversary present. he can get discount. lols. mayb monday gg to watch UP :D:D if im too tired, may change to other days. .__. even kailin reco me today. she says 1st 15mins will start crying, dam emotional. omg. i better bring tissues wit me. LOL.

our bangkok trip may not come true. back up plan = Bali. lets wait for monday before we really CHIONG for jetstar tickets. LOLS.

i kept laughing today bcos of my shannen unni!
for your info, she is my supervisor! goodness!
SHE DAM FUNNY LA!
we started chattin yest night in FB.
she says i look like ahlian & shiro looks like ahbeng.
(im sorta used to it ady, so nvm)
lol. she oso pet society lo, was fishing at tt time.. lols

then today,
i started calling her "shannen unni" = shannen big sis.
she freaked out and ask " what the hell is UNNI???"
HAHA! she tot i scolding her ah? LOL. so i replied her "it is big sis la! u tot i scolding u isit?!?!? lolsss" she asked for younger sis in korean = dong seng
she says it sucks.
and call me to imagine she calling me "Doleries dong seng, so eeek" ~=~
ok wat. i like leh. =x
then we added each other's msn.
half way thru chatting, she use emoticon to *slap & punch me!
say i nv wrk, keep msn msn.. so i say sry to unni.
another 10mins, she CHAT ME!!
with "hey" ( i think she checkin whether i wrking anot)
so i replied "you wan cheat me isit? u wan check i wrking anot right! then u wanna scold me right!"
she says im DAM RIGHT, but if i dont reply her, she wont hlp me approve my stuffs!! LMAOO!!
then tio slap again.
i ask her y keep slapping me T.T
then she told me cos she's the master and im the SLAVE! oh god!! >___<
this one make me laugh like shit...
another 10mins, she started again with "oei. yoohooo"
so i ask her isit wanna slap me again, she says nope, cos she wanna punch me now =.=
then she use e emoticon to punch me =~=
LOL! lame right??? >.<

she's so funny! and she also started calling me dong seng in emails. XD
i did something wrg by sending tt informal "dongseng" mail to our vendor! alamak!!!! tt one dam funny, cos tt guy sure feel weird, dono wat dong seng, siao siao de. LOL~

mayb she too high today la, cos she's on leave tmr. long holi 4 her. 4days leh. so shuang.
she v wat lo, tell me my bday is closing period, so i cant go overseas!! almost freaked out so i went to ask her today. then after debating, and she says ok..... then she came to my place and says im kuku 0.0 cos 27th-30th is public holi + weekends, i not applying for any leave so y i still ask her 4 permission =.= how i know ahhhh. scarli need OT? and i told her liao, she blur la! LOL. of cos mus let her know right? ~-~ charbo ah charbo!


gg to get haircut tmr.. ehh wrong.
is TRIM my hair =) LOL~ and shiro actually says he aso joining =.= tot he wan unkempt hair lo. put wat stupid hairband! lols.

it is 80% confirmed that we'll be heading to Bangkok for shar's and MY 21st BDAYYY. :D :D this way i can avoid all e trouble 4 chalet or party. just go overseas and enjoy myself XD
thou its tempting to bring people frm all walks of my life, people tt i love, people tt i care. friends tt cld nv b replaced.. and gather them together and look at all e precious people hanging out tgt. i even wrote down a list of those precious people.. .hahas of cos, there's only ONE DOLERIES, i cant entertain so many people at one time =~= tiring & troublesome too. have to start planning and book chalet by now lo. cos my bday's sch holidays. top peak season =x so i wipe out tt idea. XD

im really glad tt hyung and shar is wiling to go overseas. super grateful! :D mayb shar's frds joining us. i hope tt thy'll join us. cos 3girls is abit errr.. lols. somemore tt ass shiro no money + NS, cant go. ~.~ well. speaking of him. we decided to head somewhere for next year's anniversary. maybe then we can go bali or something, to relax. =) scarli he SAY SAY ONlY, then i'll skin him alive. LOLLLLL.

anyways, after my emo smses and emo blog entry, nigel date me out on monday. lol. he v brave ahhhh. he dint even know whether im angry/ sad or what kinda face i'll give him. he just make all his way to starhub!! by cab somemore -.- lols. okay la, im quite happy tt he call me out, cos i know he'll b thr to console + explain things to me... and make sure tt im alright. haha! and so, i really did hear ALOT abt his life recently, and it revolves ard a certain person. lol~~ shd learn how to reject ah nigel~
And mayb u shd consider introducing yur future gf to me first huh? hehe~~


im goin to get my own camera b4 i go bangkok. of cos need MANY MANY ALOT ALOT of pics! LOLSSSSS! and i wanna go the DREAM LAND THEME PARK! looks dam cute n nice =x hoho. but shdnt put such high hopes 1st, really. cos sharon n her frds nt yet confirmed mah. tmr i meetin her 4 lunch again, then we can discuss. i'll print the rates out for her reference. lols. we're not going for agency liao, we'll be booking our own air tickets and hotels. hyung kept wanting to book sia! i told her cant!! cos no. of people still nt confirmed!! she so excited! LOLS

i kept forgetting abt this sat steamboat!! LOL. even told zahid tt im free. lucky i rmbered after i bathe tt night. then i told him sorry >~< his enlistment day same as shiro! not sure abt e reportin time thou. scarli thy same platoon then will b funny! lols~

i wonder where to go on fri, mayb i shd go get my haircut wit shiro.
and i wonder when i can meet gary. lol wanna see his new hair colour!! and aso to buy "something" =x

HAPPY 5YEARS 11MONTHS,
my shiro-kun~~ <3

Today went bugis with my didi :D
so long since e last time i bought him clothings.
yar, feel kinda guilty cos i oways think of shiro when i see nice clothings >x<

He's goin to Shanghai soon... OSIP. for 2 whole mths!
actually i wanna bring him thr bcos the bermudas is godly cheap.
Then, i decided to just buy him stuffs tt he may need to wear over there.
Bought tops- polo, long sleeves tee & button down.
Bottoms- Bermudas, jeans.
Necessities: Wax, socks

think tts all. and i spent all 150bucks. =.=
which includes my skirt. haha.
i saw leopard print jacket. the colour abit off, but its only 10bucks! goodness!
i think i gg to buy tt xD

heard tmr there's this ASA travel fair @ Suntec. i wanna go take a look leh. but not yet decided. cos my hyung wrking.. so cant acc us again =(


omg. Jaejoong, micky & junsu are filing a lawsuit against their record co- SM Entertainment! T.T so risky, there are even rumors tt DBSK might disband bcos of this thing!! god. im quite shocked when i read tt the contract thy signed with SM is 13years! 0.0 by then, Jaejoong oppa already 32years old!! so long! i think e contract isnt tt fair towards e 3 of them, as SM wants to own 5 of em for 13years =.= and also somethin regarding allocation of profits. lols. i hope SM can give in to em so Jaejoong will be happy. ^~^

I hate to hear things frm others.
Esp things i rather be kept in the dark.
cos the feeling is so god damn back-stabbed.
Cant help feeling low.
1 outing i wasnt called for... i wish i dint know ANYTHING abt it, so my mood wont be this bad.
maybe it is some stun or some plans plotted. who knows.

it may look stupid to some people
and it may make people feel damn uneasy reading this.
nobody is holding you back to close this window, so go ahead.


it is b'cos i care thats y i feel this way.
when there's a time i feel nothing then i guess thats e end already.







anyways, i hate to be OBLIGATED to do something.
I really hate people that expect ALOT frm me.
I'll pass for those job related issues.
But not my frds and families!!